2003-07-13 :: are you willing to accept me as who I am as well?

Really, sometimes I can't understand what someone's thinking. Seriously, they do the randomest things. I'm not talking about anyone in particular, just people in general.

Sometimes, I really do think where I belong to. My uni, being one of the most international unis in Japan, has quite a lot of people who are in the same situation, you know? People who have lived in oversea for a long time and aren't *japanese*.

Having quite a lot of them there, it's alright. We all accept each other as they are. No prejudice made most of the time. We are all different and that's a good thing. We learn a lot from each other.

The funny thing is, that you can actually tell who are the ones grew up in oversea and who aren't. Just by looking at them, you can tell that those who lived in oversea are *different*.

Apparently I'm one of *them*. People can tell that I'm not *pure-japanese* (not in blood way) just by the looks. I don't know what makes myself so different from the others, but that's just the way it is.

Anyway, back to the story, where I belong..

As long as I stay in the little uni community, I am secure. Noone will look at me (and some others) like weirdos who is missing one screw of their brains. But once we step out from the gate of that uni, well that's a different story. I must admit that I do get stared quite often.

So, if I don't get accepted over here, then where do I belong? Not that I care, but sometimes I kind of wonder.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks about this.

I'm certainly not Australian or anything else but Japanese. This is an *identity* problem. I've heard quite a lot of people are going through this problem now.

You might say "well move back Melbourne and get Australian citizenship!" but I'm not willing to throw away my *japaneseness* Afterall that's what I am.

It's not such a big deal for me yet, but I'm sure once I finish uni, and ready to go out into the real world, the story will be different.

It's alright for now. My friends over here are starting to accept as me who I am. They don't care that I sing or hum a lot. They don't care I use weird japanese sometimes and they don't care I dress different sometimes or think differently.

More I get close to them, More I miss my friends back in Melbourne. You would not understand how much I'm missing them right now. I was nearly in tears to tell you the truth.

And another thing: Human Studies really did get me thinking. We are all born to Love. Well that's what I reckon anyway.

I love everyone, no matter how badly they treat me, I still love everyone. I don't hate anyone, and if you call me that's bullshit and I must be crazy, well fine.

If you can't accept as who I am, then don't, but I still love everyone.

And for now I must be off, why? Because I'VE GOT EXAMS TOMORROW!

Yes this whole entry had been a huge procrastination.. but everything I mentioned in this entry? They are all true.

Hasta siempre! (how sweet is this phrase? I was so moved when I heard it)