2003-09-14 :: the answer

Remember my last entry? I said during the time I was in Melbourne I found the answer to this question.

Why do I miss Melbourne so much? Do I simply miss my friends? If I do, then this means if they are here I'd be happy.. Or was there something else that I miss the city so much?

The Answer was a bit of both. I miss my friends, the time that spend with them. But at the same time I miss Melbourne. The whole city, the environment, people, the smell, the view, the sound.. everything. That's what I miss.

I love that city. I feel really at home when I'm there.

The funny thing was that I know more about Melbourne than Tokyo, my home. See, this is what living away from your home town during your teenage era.. Haha..

Don't get me wrong, of course I'm Japanese and I know this is my home. There'll always be a part of me which cannot be satisfied by anything but being in Japan. (though I'm pretty sure that part isn't very big)

But sure there is a difference between living in your home town but feel out of place, and living in somewhere else where you feel at home. Right??

I have been complaining how much I wanted to go back there since I left the country back in December, but no more to that. I'm not going to complain how much I want to go back, because I know there is no point to it. I will go back there someday. Nor would I spend my time in Japan acting like some weirdo obsessing about some foreign country. I'm going to make the time in here the best it could be.

Hmm.. I'm getting a period pain.. and it hurts.. time for a panadole..