2003-11-06 :: the train ride..

To get to the uni I have to use 2 different lines; a local one and JR. The local line will take me to Shinjuku, the centre of Tokyo and JR Chuo line (meaning the Centre Line) will take me to where the uni is, only takes 4mins.

Living in Japan and near Tokyo and using these lines I often experience the stuff I otherwise wouldn't. The most frecuent thing is a suicide.

People will jump in front of the train and kill themselves.

This will cause a huge mess up in train schedule, and usually we have to find alternatives to get to our destinations.

The ratio of scuicidal is much higher with Chuo line, only because it's running straight through Tokyo and there are more (sick) people in that area.

But last Thursday the local line was extremely messed up. I got to the station, saw the people pouring out from the station. Finding out that the all the trains have been cancelled.

It means that someone has died but instead of feeling sorry for him/her we got angry, well I felt annoyed.

Not only I won't be able to use the line, it also meant that I had to catch a bus to the nearest station of a different train line, experiencing the most uncomfortable time on the train and being late for school.

It shouldn't be like this. I mean, someone had died. Killed himself, we shouldn't be feeling angry, should be feeling sorry.

Do you know what I'm trying to say?? The value of life.

Of course you shouldn't kill yourself, because the life is all you have left after losing everything else, but at the same time we shouldn't think that a loss of someone else's life as an annoying incident.

We should be talking about how to help those people and stop them from killing themselves instead of talking how we hate to have the train stopped. The point of our conversation shouldn't be a train or how to get to school or how those suicides are the most selfish things in the wolrd.

Saying all these things, I have to admit that I'm starting to get used to the fact that the trains do stop and peope do jump.

And I'm hating myself for it. Hating myself for getting used to riding on a train which killed a person.

.. do you get what I mean??

Anyway... well that's all I wanted to say.. I really couldn't figure out why I was feeling what I was feeling this morning on the train.