2004-01-14 :: long time no see..write..

So far I've finished 4 exams. It only started yesterday and had 2 yesterday 2 today. Won't have anything till Monday and then I still have 5 more exams left, 2 more essays that are due on friday. It should be alright. Not too bad.

Exams wise, I think it went not so bad. Last semester I wasn't sure what I wanted to do, couldn't see the goal in my life. I could not understand why I had to study Spanish and other stuff I was studying at uni. It continued right after I got back from Summer holiday and I seriously started thinking about taking another entrance exams of other uni and start over the whole thing at some other uni from next year.

But then, for some reason, I started enjoying the whole thing.

Sure it wasn't easy (still isn't) course. The amount of work we get is enormous and takes hell a lot of effort just to keep up with it. I used to hate it but now I kinda like it. It kinda makes me feel that I'm doing something, learning something new.

And that's when the change started to appear. I suddenly started to become more aware of the world and started to read all those spanish sentences.

As a result, the exams for this semester went quite well. I wanted to study and I did and therefore I wasn't all lost with the exams.

Anyway.. well, enough of my exams story.

But, let me just say this one.

When I was in Australia.. or even here, I often hear people say "oh I can understand when they are talking to me in English, I can read what is written and I can write my own opinion down on the paper. I just can not speak!"

Yep.. I know exactly how it feels.. It just seems.. as my mouth cannot keep up with the brains.

Do you know how frustrating that is?!

Can't wait till the time when I can speak it fluently.. If that ever happens..

Oh guess who I saw yesterday??? TOBEY McGUIRE!

You jealouse now??

I won the tickets to this movie premier thing. "Seabiscuit". It felt like for the first time in a long time I watched a really good movie. Couldn't stop crying (but once again, I cry by watching to almost all movies) It was just.. so beautiful. I highly recomment every one to watch it.

Toby was a small guy, both on the screen and off the screen. But he seemed to be the nicest guy in the world. Such a gentleman (not that I spoke to him, only saw him on the stage)

You know? I once wanted to work in Movie industry. That dream kinda disappeared as the time went by, but after watching such a beuatiful thing, I'm thinking that maybe that kind of work isn't so bad.

Maybe? Hey?

To tell you the truth, I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Over here, we have to start looking for a job when we're in 3rd year. Which only leaves me another whole year and a bit to sort out what I really want to do.. In Japan, once you have a job, it is quite difficult to change it..

Hmm.. I think I've written quite a bit.. about nothing. Actually.. Like I used to do a year ago. Lately I haven't updating this often, forgive me, but forunately/unfortunately, I don't have much to write on here anymore..

You know what? I'm gonna be 20 in less than 5 months..